All Part Of Growing Up

All i have are the memories we shared and all the pictures that make me smile. But i promise you we’ll be together again and for good. I wont hold anymore empty promises. This time will be real. I miss you.

See you soon

No longer moping around crying and doing nothing because i cant let this one go.

i hate it when i do stupid things…

You wanna know why I ignore you? why im not talking to you? Well truth be told im fed up with all the shit you put me through. You’ve been mad at me for so when I try to be nice to you and when I havent even done shit! How do I know you won’t do that shit again cos countless times i’ve forgiven you and yet countless times you manage to get mad over nothing. You wanna know why I know you’re apology isn’t going to be sincere? Cos you’re still mad and continue to get mad and be mad. And to prove that I’m right you’re posting everything online for people to read when this shit shouldn’t even be out there and making it OBVIOUS to the world that shit is going down. You may have forgiven yourself but we’re not ready to forgive you yet. It’s gonna take a while for you to gain back our trust cos of what you did and the awkward atmosphere that you set and you’re only pushing us farther away with your actions. You earn trust, you don’t get it willy-nilly and you give respect and you earn it. It’s not something you can throw around say “There everything all better.” And note that our actions are the effect to the cause of your actions. Our ignorance of you is dependent on your actions. If things are ever to get better. There’s one thing that needs to change. Hopefully you can figure that out yourself.

I wish I could take away your pain. Put it on myself so you don’t have to go through it anymore. You’ve suffered enough and it’s about time that you be freed from all your anguish. I wanna take you to that better place where you won’t feel insecure or having to worry about the people around you. Erase all those bad memories and events that have happened to you so you can start new. I don’t like seeing you like this and it makes me cry knowing that I can’t hold you when you need me the most. I wish I could make things better with a snap of my fingers. I wish I can make things better all for you. =’(

I hate it when people can’t show the least bit respect for other people and I hate it the most when you ask nicely and all you get is a yell back to fuck off. Grow up!